Monday, May 29, 2023

How I felt suffocated in my marriage

I remember the number of days my husband mixed the dates of his travel. And never once accepted his mistakes and every-time blamed it on my memory. 


I remember the numbers of months my husband ignored my emotional needs after every conflict and argument. 


I remember the number of years my husband blamed me for the house purchase. 


I remember the number of times my husband bought up my past mistakes and questioned me for the things I did years back. 


I remember the number of times my husband complained to our parents on me. 


I remember the number of times for years my husband refused to have physical intimacy with me. 


I remember the number of times my husband skipped our pregnancy doctor appointment and wasn’t present for me during my most stressful times. 


I remember the number of years my husband wasn’t present in our daughter’s life - physically and emotionally and just claimed he supported monetarily. 


I remember the number of times my husband vacated for a month of vacation.